Every road is paved with mistakes and strange motivations. I remember when I first gained an interest in nutrition and fitness I did some of the craziest shit trying to attain the perfect body. For a while I decided I was only going to consume two white bread sandwiches with roast beef, american cheese and mayonnaise a day to limit calories. I learned of these “weight loss herbs” Garcinia cambogia and who knows what the hell was in those. I was popping them a few times a day, and feeling completely insane. I tried grapefruit for breakfast, hours of cardio, fasting and bingeing, drinking a 40oz of old english and nothing else...wild shit. Cigarettes were my weight loss supplement for a few years. None of this shit worked, I was constantly on a roller coaster of gain and loss mixed with anxiety.
From there, it turned into eating diet foods such as lean cuisines, skinny vanilla lattes, and the egg white breakfast sandwich at dunkin donuts. This actually made me feel somewhat better but wasn’t giving me great energy or gut health.
I then went into a phase with extreme rigidity where I only would cook for myself, eating nothing at restaurants or with friends, and no alcohol whatsoever. This fucking sucked, especially because I consider myself to be a free spirit and this sure as hell wasn’t in line with my identity.
The thing is it was never about getting stronger or healthier for me at that time, it was always about being physically attractive. I think having goals with your best interests in mind will lead to the best outcomes. My only interest was in being sexy which really didn’t benefit me at the end of the day. I will take confidence over being sexy any day. At the same time it is hard to be motivated to improve your health, or mentality until those aspects of yourself are at question.
To this day I struggle to find a balance between maintaining my fitness and nutrition habits and having leniency.
I don’t regret any of the weird tactics I used initially because it all led to a place where I want to implement behaviors that make me strong, athletic, healthy, and energized. In a way it was all consistently moving in a direction for my best interests. So, no matter where you are or what your motivation is, no starting place is wrong…no motivation is wrong…
With that being said the aim for me now:
* Is to eat foods that make me feel energized which is usually some combination of unprocessed whole foods but sometimes that’s pizza and ice cream.
*Avoid things that actively make me feel like shit - you don’t need science for this - if you eat it and feel like trash trust that.
*Working out with the goal of being stronger, and more capable of any physical endeavor I want to participate in long term.
*Realizing that consistent healthy habits will create a healthy life even if there’s occasional booze, candy, or whatever other vice interests me.
*Engaging in activities that make me feel happy - skateboarding, yoga, walking the beach, and new shit!
*Keeping my booty poppin forever yo! I can’t let go of this aesthetic goal - sorry ya’ll!
*Constantly shifting gears and making changes when my current nutrition/fitness plan isn’t making me feel my best…
You feel me??
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